Cough cough.. sniffle sniffel.. my poor baby

Ever since I gave birth to my son in Feb, we've decided to put my older daughter to play school. I kinda know she will fall sick periodically but I have not prepare myself for the challenge I'm about to face. The first time she fell sick, I had to separate the 2 of them by having the younger one sleep with me downstairs and the older one upstairs with daddy. It meant that she had to be home for a few more days. Thankfully the flu cleared with 3-4days. The second time she fell sick, daddy was away in China.. leaving me alone with the kids. Since Claire is not going to school.. she is also spending more time with Shane. Then it began... Shane fell sick. I have never heard a 2 month old baby cough so badly.. mucus in his nose and he cant blow his nose. The heartache was just so hard to bear. He had to take 2 different medication for his cough and phlegm 3 times a day and I have to use a nasal decongester to relieve the running nose. I have never nurse a sick baby so young.. Thankfully the doctor I went too gave me some very good advise. She taught me how to remove the mucus in his nose without using medication.

Before I went to her, I used my mouth to suck his mucus from his nose. Gross as it is.. I heard this is the best way. Guess the person I heard from aint giving me too accurate an information. The doctor instead showed me how to remove it hygienically with a nasal decongester. First she used a salt water spray to probably loosen the mucus and then cover one nostril and then suck the other nostril using the Nuk nasal decongester. You have to do it a few times before you see those green yucky stuff ooze out from his tiny nostril. The baby will cry like it hurts but it actually causes them no pain.. but probably a lot of discomfort.

I have to also devise a way to feed him his medication by myself. I realize the bouncinette is perfect. I am able to put the baby down.. tilt it backward so the medication flows down his throat and tilt it forward again if he gages and chokes. Since the cover is a net-like cloth.. I was able to put my hand under his back and pat him if he chokes.. which they will if they try to cry and swallow at the same time. The plus point.. I dont get cough mixture all over me.. the max.. if he spits and drool.. I can just change his top or wash the bouncinnete's cover which dries really quickly.

I was praying to Jesus to heal my son.. and in my prayer I told God that I would bear his sickness for him anytime. To see him so uncomfortable really saddens me. Then a gentle whisper came to my ears..

"This is exactly what I did for you my child. I sent my son to take your sickness and your sin.. because it saddens Me that you.. My child have to live in sin and sickness."

It is only when I became a parent that I can understand a small fraction of God's love for me and the wonderful love my mum gave me.